care

i wish she could just contact me. i only nead to hear it once. i need to know that she is ok.

when i was a young boy my partents constantly pushed on me to raise myself to be the man with the perfect values. one who would care for someone nomater what they did. the reason i have found to be able to care is because people only do things becuase in their reality that is the best option. they have to do it and it shouldnt offend you that that person is not you.

i understand that she may be going through a mental breakdown and that she may need to dissapear for a while. i just wish that i could have a little glance of what the future of her existance looks like to her so i can understand weather i fit into it anymore. i realy want to fit in but if the changes that have happened have pushed one out of the path it would be nice to know this and to get on with it. this sounds a little negative but it isnt ment to sound negative.

i have to much care in me and when there is no place for my care to drain to it is like i am a watter balloon atached to the end of a hose with no child to turn the watter off when i get full. i burst a little last night. it probably hurt but i cant remember it because of the alcohol.

i just want to hear that she is ok